The Letter.....

I was so conscious of his presence even though he was standing far away. All the time waiting, his eyes would fall on me. My discomfort and uneasiness was showing in my conversation with the person sitting next to me. Each of his move and lip movement were getting noticed. There was a turmoil inside me, should I or should I not!! My palms were sweaty holding the letter. The letter which had my feelings written for him. I long waited for the right moment and here it was. So this was it, my mind was set, he needs to know, whats going on in my mind. I had gathered courage and wrote in the form of a letter which he can read away from me. I was too nervous to say it in front of him. I thought he was aware but he showed no signs. I had tried earlier in different ways, was he that dumb or was pretending to be? Thats when I decided I must do something, see his reaction. I was ready for any answer. Then the letter was created where love was expressed in a poetry form.
           Time was running fast. My whole attention was on him with a room full of people. I hated the person whom he was talking to. Why wasn't he letting him go? And then he turned....our eyes met...he started coming towards me......My heart was beating so fast. He seemed calm and said hi. I nervously replied. Inside there was a voice telling me, come on, give the letter. I continued talking on general things. My palms kept crushing it. And then he left..That gave such a big blow to me. My feelings in the letter was still in my hand. Then and there I got up and threw it in the dustbin and left...The right place for it.!!!

Hatto saamne se............

Ye Hindi TV serials ne toh aajkal romance hi khatam kar diya!! Ladies apni family bhool kar TV families ko yaad rakhti  hain...Pati ne kahaa ' Memsaab, Ek cup chai milegi?' ,Aur biwi ne ulta kahaa..kabhi toh chain se dekhne diya karo, poora din ghar ka kaam kar ke ab thoda time mila aur tum ho ki.....'Arey, ye kyaa bol rahi ho? Pati ne jhatt se kahaa...TV toh ghar main hi thaa...pehle nahi dekh sakti thee....?'
               Bas yuhin chalta rehta hain nok jhonk....Phir jo chipkaav hai favorite serial ka, wait ho rahi hain, kab hero heroine ko ' I Love You ' bole....mahino, saal lag jaate, villian pe villian aa jaate par vo nahi hota jo hona chahiye..........Isi beech..shopping jaari rehti  hain , naye fashion ki dresses jo serials main dikhaye jaa rahi hain.
         Pati phir koshish karta hain...TV ke saamne khadaa ho jaata hain....Itne main biwi chillati hain  "Hatto saamne se?" Pati kehta hain, koi toh mujhe pooch nahi rahaa, mere hi ghar main. Kitna thaka haara aata hun, office se...Phir awaaz aati hain vo bhi break main, aji doosre kamre main chillao, mujhe disturb mat karo....
      Toh ye haal ho rahe hain.......phir Pati logon ko majbooran apna Blackberry nikalna hota hai , samachar.com padhna padta hain, facebook, email check karna padta hain, jo unhe apni duniya main le jaata hain......Yehi hain ghar ghar ki kahani......TV serials ke saath!!!
         

Beautiful we are......

Mirror can be a friend or a foe, depending on how you look at yourself on it. Women adorn themselves and feel pretty admiring their beauty. They try hard ,whatever their age is, by being trendy and fashionable.What actually they are decorating is a mere body, made of flesh and blood which is so temporary. That, which changes every minute and deteriorates with age. Still people spend so much time, energy and wealth on it as if its going to be the same always. It also creates low self esteem for young girls who think they do not have a beautiful body and superiority complex to people who think they have one. Mirror only shows what you are not. It is actually your friend that reminds you of the truth and tells you that you need to focus on the inner beauty which you cannot see and do your self development. If  inner beauty becomes the outer beauty and vice versa, how would you be!!! That could be your wake up call. Take out some time just to be yourself everyday.

My Own world !!!!

The most comfortable place I have is in me....

My thoughts, where no one can intrude,

My vivid imagination of all my favorite things,

Where my Hero resides,

His teachings constantly reminding me of what should be done

To be on the move

To console me and encourage me when I am down

To love and cajole me when I falter in my steps

My deep respect to my Teacher, my Father, my Guru

Dear Sirshree, I love You!!!

Look at Me!!

Days go by
   anticipating, that just one glance of yours would make my day,
      trying to get attention in any way and get you out from
                 your usual addiction of all screen gadgets........
                       If only you could have realized there is a living person always with you
      looking for appreciation, comfort and love,
 The relation we formed when we first met,
     the feeling which we used to have, so fresh..and full of pleasant surprises,
I wish..once again.....to feel that way...for ever n ever!!!!

                                                      

The Window!!!

Everyday I sit at  the same spot where all my favorite things are within my reach. I chose a spot just next to The Window. Thats my view to the outside world. A different scene is waiting for me everyday. Just like a movie which is endless. I see beautiful meadows from one corner to the next, meeting the sky just like sea. There is a stable where kids come for horse riding. Sometimes the view is so splendid, I can even see how the Sun plays with the clouds, a game of light and shadow. During storm, the dark clouds spread their beauty and clouds thunder as if to warn us of its arrival. There is a gulch where there a small pond, home to some migrating birds. Some neighboring kids, mostly the curious ones,  hover around it. There is only one tree which is dry, a witness to so many years. If only it could speak, we would know all the stories of its existence. Snowy days are so refreshing. The landscape completely changes into white. I find footprints on the dry snow of some animals like Coyote's and Bunnies. You can hear Coyotes howling at night when they go hunting for food in the same meadow.Sunset is so beautiful, Sky gradually becomes orange to pink and purple to dark blue.
       Lately there has been a lot of constructions. They built a road which has gone quite busy with the traffic. There are some yellow trucks smoothening the land making it ready to build houses too. The once plain land is now housing so many people and would continue to do so. Do we ever have the feeling of gratitude for what God has given us?
            

The Addiction...

Its funny to observe how addiction is formed. We first start a thing and if we like it, we repeat it few times and then it grows into a habit which later becomes an addiction. And ...finally we become a slave to our senses. Just to blindly follow how your senses do the past programming is funny unless you consciously watch what you are doing and then poof....your addiction is gone...